Yes, I am TOTALLY addicted but having the best time of my life. Like it has done to so many men, Internet pornography/cybersex chat takes decent, intelligent, respected and successful and makes them stupid!
Now she lives alone, divorced, virtually ignored and despised by her children.
She was still the same shy, quiet, responsible librarian.
No one knew where she had gone, what she had done, or the language she had used the night before.
The Internet porn was simply a convenient tool that aided in my romantic/sexual fantasizing.
used to be very devoted, but now I live for the Internet. I spent many hundreds of hours in sexually graphic conversations with men in cybersex chatrooms. Actually, prior to her introduction to Internet pornography and her subsequent addiction to cybersex chatrooms and illicit sex, she was an exemplary wife and mother, a model citizen in her community, and an active participant in her church. There are those reading this who might assume that Cathy was simply a loose woman, slutty, not unlike a prostitute in her mind-set. As a direct result of this interview with Cathy, together with my interaction with Willie Draughon, retired Assistant Chief of Criminal Investigations with the State Attorney General's Office, I returned to the drawing board, and revised my book to include the rising and devastating problem of female Internet porn and cybersex addiction. I began having sexual fantasies about what I saw there (sometimes involving masturbation). My life was one of sex and gratification, and all because of curiosity about porn sites. And after work she could go home and play the vixen again, engaging in dominance and submission under handles like 'Super Vixen' or 'Madam X.'" Cathy's Story-The Future of Women and Internet Pornography While writing my book . I found myself looking for time when no one was around so I could get on the Internet. I was curious about how far a person would go to expose their body for all the world to see so I got on a pornography site. One day I got bold enough to find a person online and we arranged to meet for the sole purpose of having sex. I had never met him before in my life and that is the way I wanted it. All I wanted to do was live for myself and fulfill my selfish physical desires. I now wanted to hang around the people who wanted a life such as mine. I didn't drink or smoke but I went there to socialize with the kind of people that I could take home and have a one-night stand with. It's a slow, subtle process that takes you on a trip to hell. The following is a brief overview Cathy provided me prior to our telephone interview: My first contact with the Internet is an experience that I will never forget. Before long I realized that I didn't want to just imagine sex with a partner, I wanted to physically have sex with someone. I know of many women who have fallen into the same trap that I did for one reason or another. She's amazed at how brazen she's become, hopping among several "partners" in one night and indulging in virtual sex acts she had never previously imagined. Young goes on, "the best part is the morning after. Now when Leah enters the People Connection seeking quick sexual encounters, she finds herself desired by dozens of men. Chatrooms had a much more powerful attraction to me than the pornography itself. I hide a lot of dirty laundry, make quickest meals possible . My initial curiosity with Internet porn led me to the chatrooms, which in turn led me to actual face-to-face sexual encounters.